Chapter 5: The Woman Who Gave Birth to Me
For several seconds, I couldn't make sense of the sentence.
My biological mother.
The woman who had died when I was young.
The woman whose photographs filled the bottom drawer of my bedroom dresser.
The woman whose face Ava inherited around the eyes.
I looked at Denise.
“You're my mother.””
“Yes,” she whispered.
“You raised me.””
“Yes.””
“You sat beside me when I got married the first time. You held Ava when she was born. You told me stories about the woman who gave birth to me.””
Denise nodded, tears streaming down her face.
“And now you're telling me there were two babies, and the woman you raised me to believe was my mother had something to do with all of this?””
“I loved you from the moment I held you.””
“That isn't what I asked!””
My voice broke on the final word.
Ava stood beside me, silently watching. I hated that she was hearing this. I hated that I couldn't make the room safe for her again.
Denise reached toward me.
I stepped away.
Her hand dropped.
“I never intended to deceive you for your entire life,” she said.
“How long did you intend to deceive me?””
She couldn't answer.
I laughed once, without humor.
“Thirty-two years. That's how long it lasted.””
“Caleb, please.””
“No. Tell me about the woman who gave birth to me.””
Denise glanced at Simone.
My bride was still standing beside the door, one hand wrapped around the brass handle. Her veil had slipped from her shoulder. A strand of hair had fallen across her cheek, and the careful composure she usually wore had begun to fracture.
“Tell him,” Denise said.
Simone stared at her.
“You promised.””
“I promised to protect a child. I never promised to lie forever.””
“You promised me you would never expose this.””
“I promised when you were desperate and afraid. I cannot keep making that promise.””
Simone's eyes hardened.
“You have no idea what will happen if you do.””
“Then let it happen.””
I stepped toward them.
“Both of you, stop talking in riddles.””
Denise sat on the edge of a chair, clutching the folder in her lap.
“Your biological mother was named Evelyn Carter. She was twenty-two when she gave birth. She had no husband, no family willing to support her, and very little money.””
I remembered the few stories Denise had told me about Evelyn. She had been beautiful, stubborn, and determined to finish college. She had loved music and had a habit of singing while cooking.
“Why did you never show me her hospital records?”” I asked.
“Because I didn't have them until years later.””
“Then where did the photograph come from?””
Denise looked down at the torn pieces.
“Evelyn kept it. Someone gave it to me after she died.””
I went still.
“After she died?””
Denise nodded.
“When I was told you were her only child, I believed it. I had no reason to question it until I discovered the hospital record.””
I stared at her.
“Discovered it when?””
She took a long breath.
“Four months ago.””
The date struck me.
Four months ago was when Simone and I had announced our engagement.
“You found out about the twins four months ago, and you said nothing?””
“I was trying to verify what I'd found.””
“By yourself?””
“Yes.””
“And you didn't think I deserved to know?””
“I thought I could resolve it without hurting you.””
I looked at Simone.
“Did you know four months ago, too?””
She looked away.
That was enough.
I stepped toward her.
“You knew before you agreed to marry me.””
“Caleb, I loved you.””
“Did you?””
“Yes!””
Her answer came so quickly that for a moment I believed she might actually mean it.
Then she continued.
“I loved the life we were building. I loved our home. I loved the way you looked at me when you thought I was going to be Ava's mother.””
Ava's face crumpled.
I felt a terrible coldness settle over me.
“You loved the idea of becoming her mother.””
Simone shook her head.
“I wanted to be part of your family.””
“Then why were you planning to send my daughter away?””
“Because I thought I had to.””
“Why?””
She pressed her lips together.
I turned back to Denise.
“What does Evelyn have to do with Simone?””
My mother opened the folder to a page marked with a faded red stamp.
“Evelyn and Simone knew each other.””
“How?””
“They were related.””
Simone closed her eyes.
Denise continued.
“Evelyn had a younger sister named Renee. Renee was Simone's mother.””
The room seemed to contract around me.
“So Simone is—”
“Your cousin,” Denise whispered.
I looked at Simone.
She didn't deny it.
My stomach twisted.
“You knew we were related?””
“I found out after we started dating,” she said.
“And you stayed with me?””
“Yes.””
“Why?””
“Because by then, I loved you.””
I shook my head.
“That's not an answer.””
She wiped her face with the heel of her hand, smearing her makeup.
“Renee died when I was young. I grew up hearing that Evelyn had abandoned the family and that one of her children had been taken away. When I discovered who you were, I thought the stories were exaggerated.””
“You thought?””
“I wanted to believe them.””
“You knew about the baby.””
“I knew there might have been another child.””
“And you said nothing.””
“Because I was afraid.””
“Of what?””
Simone looked at Ava.
“Of losing everything.””
I followed her gaze.
Ava's eyes were red. Her small hands were clasped in front of her dress, and she was trying very hard not to cry.
I moved in front of her again.
“Do not look at my daughter as if she is the reason your secrets are coming apart.””
Simone recoiled.
“I never wanted to hurt her.””
“Then explain the recording.””
She looked at Denise.
My mother pulled another document from the folder.
“This was sent to me anonymously four months ago,” she said.
“It was a copy of a private adoption inquiry.””
I took it.
The document described an application to review sealed hospital records concerning a female child born on the same night as Caleb Mitchell.
Near the bottom was Simone's name.
Beside it was a handwritten note.
*Subject intends to establish legal authority before the biological relationship is disclosed.*
I read the sentence twice.
“Legal authority over whom?””
Simone didn't answer.
My mother did.
“Over Ava.””
I stared at her.
“What?””
Denise pointed to the next page.
It was a draft agreement concerning guardianship and a proposed relocation for a minor child. The child's name had been typed at the top.
Ava Mitchell.
My hands went numb.
“You planned to get guardianship of my daughter?””
Simone finally met my eyes.
“I planned to make sure she would be safe.””
“From whom?””
She looked at Denise.
My mother began to shake her head.
“Don't you dare,” Denise whispered.
But Simone had already spoken.
“From you.””
I stared at her in disbelief.
She took a step toward me.
“Caleb, you don't know what your mother did. You don't know what she signed. You don't know why that baby came home with her instead of the person who was supposed to raise her.””
“You're saying my mother stole a baby?””
“I'm saying the records were altered, and your mother was involved.””
Denise rose from the chair.
“I made a mistake!””
The admission rang through the room.
She pressed both hands against her chest.
“I was told one of the babies would be placed in danger if she went home with the wrong person. I believed I was saving a child. I thought I could correct the paperwork later.””
“And you never did,” I said.
“No.””
“Why?””
Denise looked at Ava.
“Because by the time I understood what had happened, the child had already become my family.””
I felt as though the floor had vanished beneath me.
I looked down at Ava, whose little face was turned up toward mine.
“Which child?”” I whispered.
Denise covered her mouth.
Simone began to cry.
Neither woman answered.
Then my phone vibrated in my pocket.
An unknown number had sent a single message.
*If you want to know which baby you brought home, ask Denise who signed the second discharge form.*
I lifted my eyes.
My mother stared at the screen.
All the color drained from her face.
Because beneath the message was a photograph of the original form.
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And the signature at the bottom did not belong to Denise.
It belonged to Evelyn Carter.